Undervalued self-esteem

trying to hard for something
that cannot be possessed.
wasted efforts anticipate
a futile outcome.
how is value quantified,
let alone qualified?
the object of desire
surpasses self-esteem,
unless ones
ego is priceless.

Age restriction

i wish my mind
would act my age
because reality
confuses me.
to me, years
is another system,
to which my mind
cannot contain.
ideals of vigor
permeate dry bone
thriving under
expectation
the system is
a mean
not a solution.
numbers quantify
a sense
that cannot qualify.