Thinking i was better before i thought

the medication isn’t working.
i take it and nothing happens.
at least not what i’m expecting.
that can’t be.
countless others have said
that such medicine
is it because they think it’s working?
i’m no chemist.
i don’t have the proper learning
for such responses.
i’ve always thought what i am,
unless my body disagrees.
if i think hard enough, it hurts.
when i don’t think, it’s fine.
i could just be thinking that
i’m right when
i’m wrong.
i think i need help,
although my body disagrees.
no that can’t be right.
there’s schooling for nature.
they know it better than it
knows itself.