Faults aren’t fake

i want to pretend,
but i can’t convince myself,
let alone others.
working to play
isn’t fun.
exhausted smiles
speak encumbrance.
confusion impedes progress
posing knowledgeably
defends marginally.
i will not fake it
to make it.
i’d sooner fail
than preserve
a false ideal.
failure reveals
that which
a fake tries
to conceals.
faults build up
which a fake
will destroy.